So... Substitute air for thoughts and that is where my brain seems to have been for much of the summer.
I am struggling. My brain is full and busy and spinning and overwhelmed. Thoughts pop in and out at an astounding speed. The popping in is a bit of an issue. The popping out is seeming to be a huge issue. I seem to be unable to hold onto my thoughts long enough to remember what I was doing, what I was going to do and what I need to do. I am finding that I am writing myself little notes all over the place just trying to capture it all.
The result is that my life feels like it is in turmoil. I feel like things are falling through the cracks. I know that many of my requirements are falling through the cracks. It is not that I don't want to do my requirements. I am finding that I am getting to the end of the day and it just has not happened. I'm not sure where the day has gone. I spend my days busy. I am doing things that need doing. I can see progress in many areas of life yet I just feel like I can't get any real traction.
The one requirement that I know will be the most helpful in this situation is also the one requirement that I am finding the absolute hardest to do right now. Yup, journalling... I have been relatively faithfully writing in a journal daily since I started the IHC. It is a place to sort out my thoughts and process life. Lately I look at my book and I struggle to even open it. When I do get it open, I just stare at it. I am finding it hard to quiet my brain long enough to form a coherent thought to then get it written on the page.
I have also struggled to blog. It's not that I don't have things to blog about. I have thoughts all the time about what I should sit down and blog about. It's just that when I sit down to do the actually work, my brain spins. It feels like that little spinning icon that you see when the internet is looking for a webpage that just is not responding. It spins and spins. Then the message that it is unable to find the content it was looking for.
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